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On the day we move into the new apartment, my mother, Elizabeth Carter, sends a floor plan to the family group chat.
It's a three-bedroom apartment, and a name is marked beside each bedroom.
The master bedroom is for my parents, and the second bedroom is for my brother, Benjamin Sullivan. The room with the best sunlight is labeled "Savannah's Room".
Savannah Keller's father, Liam Keller, drowned years ago while saving Benjamin, who had fallen into the water. After she becomes an orphan, my parents take her in and raise her as their own for ten years.
I zoom in and out of the picture, scrolling through it twice. Still, I can't find my name anywhere.
I ask Mom about it. She pauses, as if just remembering this detail.
"You said you wanted to apply to a graduate school out of town, right? Once you get in, you'll move away. Leaving the room empty would be such a waste. Savannah's situation is different.
"Her dad died for Benjamin. She has no other family in this world, so she must be given that big bedroom."
Benjamin is already helping Savannah choose the curtains. They are pink floral ones, which she likes.
Meanwhile, my boyfriend of three years, Wyatt Whitfield, carries the newly assembled bookshelf into Savannah's room. He quietly asks her if she wants an extra shelf for her figurines.
I sit on a cardboard box in the living room, watching everyone bustle around.
It dawns on me then—it's not that they have forgotten about me. Rather, deep down, they subconsciously believe that to repay that debt of gratitude, I should naturally give up everything that belongs to me.
Even Wyatt has become an accessory to compensate Savannah.
Since there's no place for me in this home, I decided to give it all up to them.
I lower my head and tap on my phone. Then, I sign the confidentiality agreement to work at a base in the Northwest for five years, with no chance of coming home.
This time, I'm really leaving, and I'm never coming back.