Novel & Cerita His Loss

Hindi na nararapat pang naroon siya at nakikinig. An accident? Memory loss? Sa limang taon niyang kasama si Craig, hindi man lamang siya napansin na dumaan pala sa ganoong struggle ang lalaki. Tama ang lolo nito. He lived like there's nothing happened. Ang tanging alam lamang miyang naging struggle nito ay ang pag-iwan dito ng pinakamamahal na kasintahan.

galit niyang tanong dito. Matalim ang tingin niya dito kahit pa alam niyang bumabagsak na ang mga luha niya. Mariin itong tumitig bago pinunasan ang gilid ng labi nito. Hindi siya nagkamali ng hinala dahil may bakas ng dugo doon. Ramdam niya rin ang pananakit ng labi niya. "Your sorry is not enough. I just f*cking lost a million dollar deal," mariing sagot nito.

Mas lalo pang tumitindi ang guilt niya sa pagdaan ng mga araw. Hindi niya kayang makita ang kakambal na maraming nakakabit na kung ano-ano sa katawan nito. Maputla at animo walang bubay na nakahiga. Hindi niya kayang makita na nahihirapan ito. Tama na ang isang beses na nakita niya ito sa ganoong ayos noon sa America. And he can't bear the thought of losing him.

This will be the first time that I will spoke. "Sometimes, we can't avoid losing someone. 'Pag nawala iyon, malaking parte sa atin ang mawawasak at hindi alam kung paano buuin. That's life, Shawn. Accepting is the only way we can do and pray for their loss. You said that she sacrificed herself and it would be worth it. Then, you wait for that time. Put in your mind that she had a missions and her goals end that time." I said while tapping his shoulder. He didn't move and it's a sign that I should continue, and he will just listen. "I lost someone," because of what I've said, I got his attention. He turned to me and frowned. "Who?" He asked. I smiled and answered him.

They could lose Gordan for good. "With my whole heart."

Parang nanuyo ang lalamunan ko, I was such a loser. “You don’t care on what I feel and I don’t use him Seven because I don’t want to lose somebody that is special for me and it's him”

And he lost her because of a cruel setup, because of his enemies, and because of a misunderstanding that cost him his world. Downstairs, the maids and the staff stood silently, heads bowed, tears in their eyes. They had never seen their Boss like this. They knew how much he loved Lia, and they knew how much pain he was feeling right now. But there was nothing they could do. Lia was gone. And this time, it seemed like she was never coming back.

Hinawakan ko ang kamay nito at nakangiting pinisil iyon at tumango. Hindi man niya sabihin sa akin. Alam kong nasaktan din siya sa pagkawala ni Cynthia. He lost her bestfriend while he was in comma, at kahit anong tago ang nararamdaman niya alam kong naapektuham din siya sa pakamatay ni Cynthia. "So. Lets go?" Aya nito. Tumango lang akkng muli bago bumaling sa lapida at ngumiti.

I mean, there's probably no one that can challenge his insights or experiences about life for his whole life, kaya nakakapagtataka na bigla na lang siyang umiiyak dahil lang natalo siya. If he's never been compared to anyone before, and he's never been in a competition with anyone, he must've never lost in anything. Pero bakit parang ngayon, grabe na lang ang panlulumo niya? I doubt it's because it's his first time losing. Because of the shivering of his lips, he looks like he's been traumatized in something in the past. Like he really is expecting something horrible after he knew that he lost. "A-Ayos ka na?" I asked him after I let him drink a glass of orange juice.

Apat na taon na pala ang nakaraan simula ng mamatay ito. Parang kailan lang ay kausap nya ito sa telepono, ka video call pag asa malayong lugar sya, kakulitan..Unti-unti muling pumatak ang luha nito. She can’t help herself from crying because she’s still in pain. Si Marga nalang ang naiwan sa kanya, pero kinuha pa. ‘I miss you…’