Laughing Outside Crying Inside の小説・ストーリー

I blink at her like she’s speaking in tongues. Then I start laughing. One of those belly-born cackles that starts deep inside your stomach — usually right in the middle of a church service — and you’re not sure what exactly is so funny, but you just can’t stop. The kind that always ends in tears, a weird hiccup, or — heaven forbid — a fart. Some of the staff start laughing at me … definitely not with me. My laughter fades into some hiccup snickers. I focus on Sky’s face.

She was laughing so hard she almost peed herself. Claire had already stopped laughing, but Lexie continued. And then, her loud laughter slowly turned into soft sobs, until it became full-on crying. "Haha… I—I’m sorry. I think it’s—it's just my pregnant self, laughing and crying at the same time. Oh gosh, I can’t stop…" She cried, wiping her tears with the back of her hand. Claire remained silent, watching her intently.

“Not you. Not them. Not ever. I’ll crawl out of the earth a thousand times if that’s what it takes. You belong with me, kitten. Alive. Breathing. Laughing too much. Driving me mad with your mouth. That’s how it’s going to be, and nothing—do you hear me—nothing will take that from me.” And me? I was just sitting there melting, trying not to scream into his shirt, because how the hell do you even respond to that? Do you know what I did? I laughed. Not because it was funny, but because my emotions are everywhere, and sometimes laughing is the only way to stop myself from crying until my eyes swell shut.

He stopped and gave me the evil eye, "You need to stop joking around. What you are going through is serious and it hurts you to laugh." I said, "I know, but if I don't laugh, I'm going to cry. I hate crying."

I shouted and I ran inside my room and left her alone crying with Nanan Salve. I banged the door and locked it because I didn't want any disturbance from them. I want to clear my mind because it is mixing with my heart. The dark thoughts and the heavy heart are now combining to make me laugh while crying. Like what I used to do before. Laugh and then cry, Cry while laughing because of the pain that makes me crazy.

There was no reason to laugh when everything in my life made me cry either in pain, sadness, self loathing, or regret. I didn’t know laughing could make the stomach hurt so much, or make the eyes water. I found that last part the weirdest. Even laughing; such a positive and happy thing, can end up making you cry! Why is it that tears are always involved in both happiness and sadness? I found that really unreasonable and unfair. There should be no crying in happiness.

She fell to her knees on the asphalt, sobbing theatrically, putting on the performance of a lifetime. But inside? Inside, Aria Cross was laughing.

Angela asked, then burst out laughing. I wiped my face, half-laughing, half-crying now. "Stop laughing,it's not funny".

I said "you know that I am emotional"she said "yeah but,I don't still like seeing you cry" I said "if you have to cry please cry inside your heart and don't show it "I added and she stared at me "you are one strange guy"she said "strange is different and different is good"i said and she laughed I'm happy she stopped crying. "oh my gosh"she screamed and I flinched "what is it? "I asked worried

A low, broken smile slipped past my lips, and before I could stop myself, a laugh escaped my throat. At first it was soft, but then it grew louder. I bent forward slightly, one hand clutching my stomach, the other pressing against my head as laughter shook my body. “Hahahaha…” Tears spilled from the corners of my eyes as I laughed, the sound echoing in the empty house. My mother froze. She stepped back, her brows knitting together in confusion. “Grace… you’re—” I didn’t listen. I just kept laughing, my shoulders trembling, my chest aching as if the laughter was tearing something open inside me.