As Far As I Can Remember Novels & Stories

nakita ko ang sakit na dumaan sa mga mata niya pero hindi ko ito pinansin. " I'm not blaming anyone, but right now, I'm in my most vulnerable state. I don't remember anything. I don't even remember my name. I don't remember where I've been and what I am in the past and that includes you. I don't remember you or anything about you." diretso kong sabi sa kanya. Hindi ko na rin inalintana ang mga tingin at bulung-bulungan ng mga kaibigan niya.

Palabas na ako ng HQ nang marinig ko siyang mahinang bumulong. "You were forgetting me while I'm trying to remember you."

Pagkatapos ay ibinalik niya ang tingin sa labas at paulit-ulit na bumuga ng hangin. Ramdam niya ang malamig na hangin na dumampi sa pisngi niya. "Hindi ba sabi mo you wanted to forget? Kaya nga nagpunta ka rito sa Maine. But how can you forget if you keep reminding yourself sa mga nangyari?"

Parang hindi ko pa kasi kaya. What he did to me years ago, were still fresh and deep.

Was there a reason they kept referencing it? The truth is, I have no clear memory of what I did or what I experienced back then. My short-term memory loss makes it hard to recall anything recent, let alone events from five years ago. I only know that I was only fifteen when those years slipped past me. That age alone feels like a foggy window because there's a lot of things that was happening, but I can’t see through it clearly. As I looked at Liam now, I could see that he was serious.

All I can remember was that I was having sex with a man who seemed like I was in love with. Vish? Who was that? I couldn’t remember his face. Sobrang linaw ng mukha niya sa panaginip ko pero bakit hindi ko na maalala ngayon? What the heck is happening to me? Bigla na lang akong nahilo at kasabay niyon ang bigla ring pagsakit ng ulo ko kaya napahawak ako roon saka mariin na napapikit. God! I really need to see some specialist that could help me remember my past. Hindi pwedeng ganito na lang ako lagi. Kailangan kong makaalala kasi kung hindi, mababaliw na ‘ko.

Flashback. I was so drunk that I can't remember what happened ang natatandaan ko lang ay pinindot ko ang doorbell ng isang unit at may bumungad sa akin na babae na sa tingin ko ay nakainom din kagaya ko dahil sa malakas na amoy ng brandy dito. "M...Makikituloy sana ako sa'inyo." I know it's dumb but I can't drive "Roberto?" bulalas nito at nanlaki ang mga mata

Halos limang minuto ba naman nya akong hinalikan ako! “ Once i tasted, i always remember it! Don’t denied it ”

Isang malalim na buntong-hininga na lamang ang aking pinakawalan at hindi ko mapigilang pagmumurahin na lamang ang aking sarili sa aking isipan. I am a fvcking man for goddamn sake, I shouldn't be acting like this. Fvck! Why can't I act like it's just nothing, why can't I be tough enough to accept what happened to me and just buried the fvcking disgusting memory in the deepest part of my brain? Why the fvck I am still letting it haunt me?

Kanina naman pagkarating tinanong ulit ako, at ngayon ulit. Nakita ko itong napakamot ng ulo, "Nothing. You really don't remember it." he said. Napakunot ang noo ko sa pagkagulo. Why? Miyerkules naman talaga ngayon? Hindi na lamang ulit ako nagsalita at inantay na lamang na makarating kami sa mansyon. Inaantok na rin kasi ako, ewan ko ba sa mga anak ko at parang hindi maubos-ubos ang enerhiya ngayon.